I opened my eyes. I was looking up at the ceiling. Why I was looking there, I don‘t know, but I kept looking anyway, and laughing. I kicked my legs and shuck my arms, but it brought me no closer to what I was looking at. I called out “Ga, ga, gaagh, goo.”
There was no reply.
I lifted my head. But it fell back down. I was lying on my back, and I was covered from foot to neck in the blanket my Dada had tucked me into. I wanted to move my arms over my covers. But I didn‘t know how to move them in coordinated motions. I had been practising since I arrived from my mother. But it takes a bit of getting used to.
I called out again “Goo – goo – mama.”
Again there was no reply. I kept kicking and shaking my arms. I shuck my head. I tried all the movements I had learned so far. But nothing seemed to move my cosy restraints. I looked up at the ceiling again. It was the same as it had been earlier on. But it was all I had to look at. There was bars on both sides of me ‘which I could probably look through‘. But believe me, for the effort it would take to turn my head sideways; the ceiling was a much better option. As the room got brighter, I became more and more awake, and more and more restless.
I called out again “Mama – Dada – ga ga – goo goo.”
Still there was no reply. I kicked and I kicked. I pushed with my arms. I was determined. I was uncomfortable from lying there for so long. All I wanted to do was change my position. Oh yeah, and get out of my wet nappy.
I called louder this time “Mama – mama – mama.” Then out of frustration I said “Goo – gah -ga.”
I kept trying to free myself, and finally it paid off. One of my arms was free. I could move it right up to my head. I could touch my mouth, my nose, my ears, and the bars of my sleeping place. I could touch the bars. I could touch the bars and I could grip. What if I was to grip the bars and kick and shake at the same time? I tried it and I could.
I shouted a victory chant “Ga ga – goo goo.”
I kept kicking and shaking, and eventually my other arm was free. I had two arms to use now, and now that I had them I was going to use them well. I tried to push my cover down. But it was too much of a chore. So I hung onto the bar again with one hand. If my arms were longer I could have reached the other side as well. But they weren‘t, so I couldn‘t. I kept kicking and kicking. Then I had an idea. I kicked my legs, at the same time as pushing with my hands. It was working. My restraint was getting looser. I could move more freely. I was warm and I needed air. I stopped kicking for a bit and had another look at the ceiling. It was still the same.
I called out one last time “Ga ga mama – dada.”
Still there was no reply. Just a funny noise from my dada‘s nose. I started kicking again. I was making real progress. I was starting to do some new movements. I had the sheets down to the top of my wet nappy. I had got this far. I could get further. As the sheet worked its way down to my feet I was feeling good.
I sang a little song “Ga ga goo goo – ga goo ga.”
At last my feet were free. My arms were free. Now if I could just learn how to stand up. If I could grip the bars with both hands and pull myself up, I could look at my sleeping mama and dada, instead of looking at the never changing ceiling. I managed to roll over onto my tummy. I moved my legs and my arms in different directions. I was slowly getting into the position I wanted to be in. I was making real progress. I was determined to stand by myself.
I heard a noise coming from where mama and dada were sleeping. I tried to look over. But my head was too heavy in the position I was in. I got a burst of energy and grabbed hold of the bars. I moved my legs. My head was rising up, and my body was following it. I was almost on my feet.
I called out “Dada – mama!”
There was no reply. I looked over at them. They were sleeping. They were sleeping, and I was standing. For the first time in my life I was standing, and they were asleep. I had to wake them. I had to let them see me.
I called out “Mama – mama – gaah.”
There was no reply, and I didn‘t know how long I could stay like this for. I started shaking my legs. The bars shuck with me, and with them shaking there was a noise. I shuck harder. I called out. There was a movement in the bed. My mother‘s head had moved and her eyes had opened. I was excited for her to see me standing up like this. I smiled at her. She smiled back at me.
I said “Ga ga – goo.”
Then it dawned on her. I could stand! I was doing it now! I could stand up! She sat up, smiled at me and said, “Hello sweetie. Did you stand up all by yourself?”
I laughed, and with pride I said “Goo gah.”
She lay back down and said “Good boy. Now lie back down and go asleep.”
I smiled back and said “Goo goo goo.” and I won‘t tell you what that means!
翻譯：
我睜開眼睛，我正仰望天花板。我不知道自己為何盯著那里，但我一直在看，在笑。我踢腿，甩手臂，但并未能因此而更靠近景物。我大喊：“嘎，嘎，嘎啊，咕?！?
沒有回應(yīng)。
我抬起頭，又倒回去。我仰臥著，從脖子到腳被爸爸塞進毯子里。我想把雙臂伸到被子外，但是不知道怎樣才能協(xié)調(diào)進行。自出娘胎后，我就一直在練習(xí)，但我還是需要一些時間去適應(yīng)。
我再次大喊：“咕，咕，媽媽?！?
依然沒有回應(yīng)。我不斷地蹬踢，揮舞雙臂，晃動頭腦。我嘗試了所有已掌握的動作，仍然無法移動包裹我的溫暖的束縛。我再次仰望天花板，那里跟先前一樣，沒有改變，可那是我能看到的一切。我的兩側(cè)有圍欄，我的目光可以穿過圍欄。但我知道，如果我要那樣扭頭看的話，準(zhǔn)會把我的脖子弄歪的；其實還是天花板好看一點。房間越來越明亮，我就越加清醒，越加煩躁不安。
我又大喊：“媽媽，爸爸，嘎嘎，咕咕。”
仍然沒有回應(yīng)，我不斷地踢呀踢，用雙臂推。我下定了決心。躺在那里太久了，我不舒服。我一門心思要改變我的位置，噢，好了，終于擺脫了濕濕的尿布。
這次我更大聲喊道：“媽媽，媽媽，媽媽”。我感到很失敗，只好嘀咕著：“咕，嘎，嘎?！?
我仍然嘗試掙脫束縛，最后終于奏效了。我的一只手臂可以自由活動了，我可以把手臂伸到頭頂上，可以摸自己的嘴巴，鼻子，耳朵，還有身旁的圍欄。我可以摸到圍欄了。不僅如此，還能抓住它呢。如果我抓住欄桿，同時又踢又搖，會是怎樣的呢？我試了，我可以。
我大聲歡呼：“嘎嘎，咕咕。”
我不斷地踢蹬，搖晃，最后，我的另外一只手臂也自由了。我現(xiàn)在有兩個手臂用了，我要好好運用它們。我努力把被子往下推，卻無濟于事。于是我手抓欄桿，掛在圍欄上，如果我的手臂夠長，就可以觸及另外一端。但是不夠長，所以我不能夠。我不斷地踢呀踢，我靈機一動，我用腿踢，同時用雙手推，成功啦。我的束縛越來越松，我可以更自由地活動了。我很溫暖，我需要空氣，我停止踢蹬，看了一眼天花板，那里沒有任何改變。
我最后一次大喊：“嘎嘎，媽媽，爸爸?！?
仍然沒有回應(yīng)，只有一個滑稽的噪音從我爸爸鼻子里發(fā)出來。我又開始踢蹬了，我有了真正的進展，我開始做一些新的動作。我把被子蹬到濕尿布上。我已經(jīng)大大的成功了，還可以更成功。當(dāng)我把被子蹬到腳下時，我感覺棒極了。
我哼著小曲：“嘎嘎咕咕，嘎咕嘎?！?
最后我的腳自由了，手臂也自由了。要是現(xiàn)在我可以學(xué)會如何站起來就好了。如果我能夠雙手抓住欄桿把自己拉起來，我就能看到我熟睡的爸爸媽媽，而不是老看著那一成不變的天花板。我終于能翻過身來，我朝各個方向移動著我的腿和手臂，慢慢地我挪到了想去的位置。我真的大有進步了，我決定自己站起來。
我聽到從爸媽睡覺的地方傳來了一個聲音。我竭力想看看是怎么回事，但我的頭太重了。我一鼓作氣，抓住欄桿。我移動了我的雙腿。我抬起頭，身體也隨之立起。我差不多可以站起來了。
我大喊：“爸爸媽媽！”
沒有回應(yīng)。我朝他們看過去，他們在睡覺。他們在睡覺，而我卻站著。在我的生命中，我第一次站起來了，而他們卻在熟睡。我必須喚醒他們，讓他們看看我。
我大喊：“媽媽，媽媽，嘎?。 ?
沒有回應(yīng)，我不知道還能這樣站多久。我開始搖晃雙腿，圍欄跟著搖晃，而且還發(fā)出了一些響聲。我更使勁地搖晃，我大聲喊叫。床上有動靜了，我媽媽的頭動了，她睜開眼睛。她能看見我如此站起來，我興奮極了。我朝她微笑，她也向我微笑。
我說：“嘎嘎，咕?！?
她漸漸明白了。我可以站起來了！我正站著！我可以站起來！她坐起來，微笑著對我說：“親愛的，你自己站起來的嗎？”
我笑了，很自豪地說：“咕，嘎?！?
她躺回去，說道：“好孩子，躺回去，睡覺吧?！?
我微笑著對她說：“咕，咕，咕?！蔽也粫嬖V你這是什么意思的！
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